gone are those days

Hi dear loyal readers whether I know or dont know you. I will not confide into this space anymore, either will I delete it. Readnoemos kept many of my days and vents. Weird as it seems, Ive grown sick of reading no emos and faking like I mean it. I grown sick of all these pretending just to keep close and rather, falling apart. I grow sadder thinking of how being so timid at showing my emotions failed me. I failed myself by faking a facade as to who I am. There are a few I felt comfortable with. There are a few truths I never dare to admit. Thoughts and suchs I want to leave it all behind as part of me growing up.

I thought about alot during this holiday. There's many to do list I really want to complete. First, I must make sure my unhappiness be heard. Of cos, I'll stay a happy soul.

PS: YOU CAN DIVORCE YOUR WIFE YOUR CAREER BUT NVR YOUR PAST.

HOURS AND HOURS

MET JANICE AND TALK FOR HOURSSSS! OMG DIDNT KNOW THAT GIRL CAN TALK SO MUCH! THIS AND THAT THESE AND THAT. HAHA WE GOSSIPED ABIT, MAN DIDNT KNOW THAT GIRL CAN GOSSIP TOO. HAHA GOOD MEETING UP. HOPE CAN KEEP UP WITH THE EXERCISE PLANS. WOO, IM SO UNHEALTHY.

BORING SHIT TILL I PLAY WITH FB QUIZ. GOT ONE QNS DAMN FUCKING LAME. EVERY ANS I CHOOSE 'UR BESTFRIEND' END UP THE RESULT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND. WTF LA SRSLY. KK IM HUNGRY MAN....

I HATE NOT KNOWING

OKAYE!!! THIS IS GNA BE A QUICK ONE. I SPENT MY ENTIRE DAY WITH MOM. MOM AND ME DAY ACTUALLY. I ACCOMPANIED HER TO THE DOCTOR, TO THE SALON, TO THE NTUC TOO. MY BOOK ACC-ED ME. AND WITH THAT, IM PRETTY PLEASED WITH MYSELF SPENDING QUALITY TIME WITH HER FOR I KNOW FYP GNA SUCK MY ATTENTION LIKE REALLY HARDCORE-LY. SO WHATEVER!!

GUESS WHAT? I DID STH RATHER STUPID TODAY. IN FACT YOU WILL LAUGH AT ME SHLD YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED.

Mr Vampire kickass movie.

Dear diary, I spend like a sinner. I laugh when my money are leaving me. I feel really poor but cant kick my ass to work. This is a very bad sign. Anyway! the books arrived when im out. wtf really, I waited the past few days dont have, today I go out shopping then it come. WTF right?

Something to occupy my last week of holiday :)

The other day my parent and I were watching Mr Vampire. Remembering Dalian late nights gather just to watch some horror movies. Dalian gang, where are you?

WAKING UP

"TIME PASSES. EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE. EVEN WHEN EACH TICK OF THE SECOND ACHES LIKE A PULSE OF BLOOD BEHIND A BRUISE. IT PASSES UNEVENLY, IN STRANGE LURCHES AND DRAGGING LULLS, BUT PASS IT DOES.

EVEN FOR ME"

new moon, page 93

LOL RE-READING NEW MOON AGAIN. ONCE, HOOKED.

WACKY PEEKTURES

CHECK OUT THE HELMETSSSS

CONVO WITH DADDY!

ME: PA WHY U SO EARLY COME BACK TODAY? (9PM)

DAD: CANNOT MEH? NO GOOD MEH I COME BACK EARLY.

ME: GOOD AR GOT PPL ACC ME I ALONE DAMN SIAN.

DAD: THAT WHY I COME BACK EARLY I KNOW MY DAUGHTER ALONE BORING.

WTF HE CFM GAY SIAO ME.

MEE SUA WITH SHRIMPS

Dear best friend, I felt tired all the time. My books haven arrive, just dispatched this afternoon. And I spent my previous days waiting for it. wtf.

Min came over this afternoon and I cook meesua for lunch. First time ever I cooked for someone outside my family. Actually not really, Ive cooked for Dalian cliqs before. I've finished all my books alrdy!! the entire series I've gotten, now I felt like powerranger. OH the last DEAD AND GONE not available in paperback, DEAD IN THE FAMILY not in town yet either. Hope my new series arrives TML !!!

Oh my grandma told me one of our relatives in Indo had lost her baby during childbirth. Apparently, it died in the womb. I feel so sad after hearing this, having wished I could do something, knowing I cant at all makes me ever sadder.

PIG IN DISGUISE ACTUALLY!

DEAR DIARY, IVE WOKE UP TO A MILD STOMACH CRAMP THIS MORNING SO I THOUGHT PERIOD'S COMING SO I WAITED WHOLE DAY TO WELCOME ITS PAINFUL ARRIVAL. PERHAPS IM TOO TENSED UP IT DIDNT COME TODAY.

FELT SO TIRED ALL AFTERNOON SO I SLEPT MY WAY UNTIL 6PM I WOKE UP FOR DINNER AND LISTEN TO TOD VIDEO. FEEL SO HARDWORKING LEH ME. THEN HALFWAY THRU JASON TEXT ME SO OFF I GO MAKAN. SO NOW IM BACK AND TOD-ING LECTURE THREE. WATCH ME FINISH THE FUCKING TOD. WATCH ME WATCH ME.

LATELY, I REALLY FEEL SO LL. ANYWAY, I STARTED THINKING ABOUT ATELIER ONE. BUT HAVEN THOUGHT OF ANYTHING IN PARTICULAR AND I REALLY WANNA WATCH I LOVE YOU BETH COOPER.

PS: FAV PHRASE: DARLING YOU LOVE ME?

I RULE MY WORLD LOL

KK TODAY I WOKE UP AT 9AM EARLY RIGHT. I WENT SCHOOL TO TOUCH OUT THE TO-BE-DAMN PROTOTYPE WITH MY DAD AGAIN. I JUST CANT STAND THE FUCKING GEARS. WHO INVENTED GEARS SHALL BE DAMNED. WHOEVER LOCKED THE STUDIO DOORS SHOULD BE DAMNED FURTHUR! I HAD TO RUN HERE AND THERE TO GET SOMEONE TO OPEN THE DOOR WHEN ARTHUR (OMGWHAT?!) IS AT LEVEL ONE WITH THE KEYS. TOLD THAT RENOVATIONS WORKS ARE IN PROGRESS AND DAD AND ME ARE NOT ALLOWED TO BE IN THE STUDIO DOING WORK. PEOPLE WHO TOLD ME THAT MUST BE KICK DAMNED HARD IN THEIR ASSES. SOOYIN ACTUALLY. I WOULDNT KICK HER OF COS. HEE HEE

SO DAD DRAGGED THE BLOODY PROTO OUT OF THE STUDIO START FIXING THE GEARS AND OHMYGOD THE ANOTHER GEAR STARTED TO FLEX ALRDY DAMN PISSED AND SWEATING NONSTOP LIAO ALRDY. HE KEPT NIAM NIAM NIAM ME WHY NOT PREPARE FOR TODAY NEVER BRING GLUE NO THESE AND THAT. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW I NEED THESE AND THAT WHEN ALL I NEED YOU TO DO IS TO FIX THE SMALL GEAR BACK IN PLACE? BAD MOODDDDD OKAYE.

THEN RICKY REFUSED TO BORROW ME HIS DOGDAMN SCREWDRIVE-NOTSCREWRICKY-GUN UNLESS I GIVE HIM MY STUDENT CARD. HE CLAIM MANY PEEPOPLE DIDNT RETURN AND NAME A FEW BUT I ONLY RMB PATRICIA'S NAME. SO I STORMED BACK TO STUDIO AND SAW MY DAD SWEATING AND STARTED MY HEARTPAIN SECTION. THE STUDIO HAVE GOT AIRCON AND NOONE RENOVATING IT AND IM NOT ALLOWED TO USE. WHY DID I PAY SCHOOL FEES FOR? SO WE FUCKCARE AND DRAGGED EVERYTHING INSIDE AND WOAH WITH THE AIRCON, EVERYTHING'S BETTER.

SO NOW IM LEFT WITH THE PYRAMID TOP AND GET A REAL BIG SOFT BALL. NO, TWO BIG SOFT BALLS. FINISHED BY ONE PLUS SO ZROMMM TO JR WEST TO ENJOY BATKUTEH. DAMN SHIOK. SPEAKING OF WHICH, ANITA WE REALLY SHLD DATE ON SAT TO EAT BATKUTEH AGAIN. YUM SALIVA DRRRROOOOLING?

BLOG HOPPED A FEW AND SPOTTED A REALLY YANDAO JUNIOR IN JWSS. SP NOW DROOOL LIAOZXCXZXCZZZ. AND SPOT A FEW CATCH PHRASE. I ESPECIALLY LIKE THIS 'HE'S THERE IN THE DARK. HE'S THERE IN MY HEART'. NICE NOT I LIKE LEH. ANOTHER ONE IS 'IM SELFISH WHEN IM SELFISH.' WHAT ELSE? ARH, 'IGNORANCE IS NOW MY BEST FRIEND'. AYE I STEAL THESE CATCH PHRASE I LIKE AND USE IT LIKE MY OWN. I LIKE LEH YOU KPO. NOWI FEEL DAMN LL BUT NVM COS I FEEL LIKE SO. NO TAGBOARD CANNOT KPKB.

YAH. I SAW ANITA'S BLOG I START THINKING OF THOSE FRIENDS I WANNA GROW OLD WITH TOO. IVE CHOSEN MY ATELIERS TOO AND SEND IN ALRDY. HAH HAH, I MUST BUCK UP AND START GRINDING MY GEARS FOR WAR SOON.
WAR WITH JONATHAN HAHA. AND PROJECT SCHEDULES TIRENESS MENSES BORINESSS LONELINESS GASTRICS HUNGERS AND WHATEVERS LASSSSS.

I CAN WRITE WHEN I WANT TO WRITE SO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND READ. HEHE JUST KIDDING. HOPE YOU ENJOY READING MY BOREDOMSSS :D MUCH LOVES FROM E Z A N N THE SEXY LOL. NOW IM LAUGHING.